Hey Nicki, I hope that the baggies idea works out for you.
As for the snacks, can you buy snacks more on the healthy choices for DH and DD?
Like baked crisps as opposed to fried crisps? Breakfast bars 90 calories or less for the sweet snack? Individual packaged cookies for less calories?
Just another thought.
I haven't showered yet, and that means that I haven't weighed in yet. But, I need to do that this morning. And, I'll raise up a little prayer and ask for it to be at least the same weight or even better, lower.
On a complete change of topic, but as I write to you my mind is absolutely flooded with my relatives and England as a whole. And, I hope that one day I can return. It's been a very long time. I've lost loved ones and gained new ones that I have yet to meet. So, "when" I make that trip over, you better be dressed cause I'm coming a knocking!!!!
That'd be cool, wouldn't it?
Meeting.
HAVE A FANTASTIC WEEKEND.
We're full of things to do. We were hoping to all get baptised this weekend, but that's a long story. Looks like DH and DS will be doing it.
Back from my camp reunion. The reunion was the best. Love the camp! Love my camp friends!
Eating was a mess though. Not much to choose from. I am up 4 lbs this morning. Uggh. My goal is to get that off soon.
Did walk a ton and climb up and down - back and forth to our cabin. And went on a beautiful hike. So I am confident I did not do too much damage.
Just about survived the weekend. Zoe's poorly and then there was the wedding almost from **** to survive.
Kelli when you come over I would love to meet you, and if you ever come over Ash you will be warmly welcomed as well.
I've also decided that I'm only going to lose 7lb at a time and concentrate on that alone. Sometimes the large amount of weight we have to lose can become daunting and unsumountable. Losing in my case 7lb a time, (that's half a stone) or in maybe 10lb sections, makes it acheiveable. So I haven't got over 100lb to lose I've only got 7lb to lose. Then when that's gone I'll have another 7lb to lose.
Nicki-sorry you had a difficult weekend. The 7 lb loss idea is great. I am doing about 10lb increments. And it makes it much easier in my mind.
It would be fun to meet up in england. How close are you to newcastle, Nicki? Did I tell you I am encouraging my dd to go to school there - she is a uk citizen. I'd miss her but it would be a great experience.
Ash I've just checked via google maps and I'm 176 miles away from Newcastle upon Tyne and it says it would take about 3 hours to get there by car, now as I'm without a car at the moment I'm told that it will take me 7 hours by public transport.[/COLOR]. Then for a laugh I found out how long it would take me to walk, that came up as between 2 to 3 days. Now that's optomistic to me, the speed I walk at I'd put it at 2 to 3 weeks!
You guys made me smile as I read over your posts about visiting England and miles from Newcastle and walking it!!!
Thanks, I needed that.
I just wanted to post and say that I may not be online for awhile, because I am having a bit of a rough spell with the DH. He's going away to his cabin in the mountains near the ocean this long weekend and I'm going to make sure that I have his food bags packed up and ready to go by Thursday!!!
So, this weekend it will be just me and DS.
I'm going to make certain that DS understands that I will be having "ME" time this weekend, too.
Well, keep up the good weight loss girls and I will hopefully be online soon.
I've got to get my act together. I'm completely off track and sliding down the slippery slope to giving up. It's my turn for my 'Enough is Enough' friends to read me the riot act.
Nicki
ps this mood started at the wedding, it wasn't the food it wasn't the drink no it was the fact that I was so livid, and this is why.
Before the wedding we had been told that the only children allowed at the actual ceremony were those actively involved i.e flower girl, page boy and all other children were to be looked after and join the rest of the wedding party after the ceremony, this was supposed to be because of space. It turns out that Zoe was the only child not allowed into the ceremony and there wasn't any facilities for children to be looked after. So Colin stayed out to look after her. Then we get to the wedding breakfast, all the other children were given a gift for being good, Zoe didn't get one. We were put out of the way on a table at the back. Zoe is the grooms cousin I am the grooms aunt. My sister was mortified when she realised what was happening, so was my nephew, they had both been kept out of the planning of the wedding. But the thing that really got to me was when Zoe went up to say goodbye to the bride and that woman just looked straight through my daughter and walked past her as if she wasn't there with a look of loathing and hatred on her face. Mad I'm still livid. Zoe may be Autistic but she isn't a monster, she's an 11 year old, very loving and I love her to bits.
Hey just thought this is probably one of the rare times I can use certain smilies here!
I am so sorry that happened to your family. I am horrified at some people's insensitivity and ugliness. Rant all you want. We are sending you many many hugs.
BUT..... Your health and well being are still very very important. Yes, you must find a way to deal with your feelings but food is not the solution. It will not make you feel better in the long run. Remember how we discussed taking baby steps and learning what we need to learn. Now is the time to learn what is a healthy response when you are feeling crappy, how can you take care of yourself in this situation.
OK, List three things you can do that will be taking care of yourself. I am a firm believer that we have to feel what we feel (I am in this mess because I don't like feeling angry or sad) and so I think it is great that you laid it all out for us. What else can you do? And I know you know what to do because if this had happened to your best friend you would know what you would want her to do.
I know that you can take care of yourself and work through this.
Nicki,
I'm not part of this group, but just read your post and want to let you know how sorry I am that you and your daughter were slighted in that way! Please know that not everyone is as rude, insensitive, and ignorant as those people! The church I raised my children in was awesome with one of the member's children who was autistic. At times M would get up in the middle of church, walk up to the pastor and interrupt the sermon to ask a question. Other times he would go to the choir director or soloist and ask them to play a certain hymn that he liked. Nobody was ever rude or hurtful, and M was never excluded or chastised. This was one reason that was our family church for over 10 years!
As for going off track because of the situation, don't let those people control how you feel or how you treat yourself. Show them that you are the better person and pursue your own goals. If you can't cut these people out of your life, plan in advance how to deal with any future situations to protect your daughter and yourself from their hateful behavior. That way you're the one in control!
5lb weight gain. Still it's taught me one thing. No matter how upset I get, eating a load of **** is no way to get my own back, on someone who is obviously so insensitive to the needs and feelings of others. They haven't a clue about it and the only person that suffers is me.
Hey Nicki,
I read your post of the wedding incident and I responded to it with all these quotes from this book(s), from this particular author that I really like and then my computer decided to....poof! Presto, chango and it was gone.
Essentially, I had written that I was sorry (and infuriated) for you inregards to that very rude/nasty individual that treated your daughter so poorly.
I, personally, am studying the Word and using a great deal of what I read from Joyce Meyer books to start living a more peaceful, joyful, Godly life. And, I would probably have taken that woman's head off at an appropriate time, but then when I think back on what I've read and hopefully learned, I wouldn't have said a thing.
I'm upset and sorry for your situation and I can certainly understand the 5 lb. gain.
The situation with DH and I, is so incredibly stressful that all I've done the past week is EAT.
I'm so afraid to even stand on the scale.
So, I can relate to the eating under stressful conditions.
Things have calmed down, but still not back on the wagon, though I have stopped the mindless binging.
What I did was take myself to the Dr's and availed myself to the resources of the NHS. She weighed me, chatted to me, and arranged for me to see the dietary nurse on a 2 weekly basis. My first session was this morning and I now have a personal dietary sheet to work from I'm also on the waiting list to see a eating disorder specialist and I've got a relaxation/self hypnosis tape to help my mind set. If it turns out that I do have an eating disorder then I'll get sessions with the eating specialist, if it is just the fact that I eat too much and need to move more I may if lucky get a gym membership at the local leisure centre.
Kelli,
Focussing on joy and peace has got to be the right track...for us all. Now matter how you do it. I have been thinking that I have let my prayer life go in the last few months and I need to get back to it.
I am still losing but have adopted some bad eating habits. And my body is not happy. Have to go back to eating more natural foods. Why is that so hard.
Have two papers to write today- so must get started.
Things have calmed down, but still not back on the wagon, though I have stopped the mindless binging.
What I did was take myself to the Dr's and availed myself to the resources of the NHS. She weighed me, chatted to me, and arranged for me to see the dietary nurse on a 2 weekly basis. My first session was this morning and I now have a personal dietary sheet to work from I'm also on the waiting list to see a eating disorder specialist and I've got a relaxation/self hypnosis tape to help my mind set. If it turns out that I do have an eating disorder then I'll get sessions with the eating specialist, if it is just the fact that I eat too much and need to move more I may if lucky get a gym membership at the local leisure centre.
Nicki
Hey Nicki,
Sounds like you've got your head on your shoulders. The doctor's office visit sounds like some good things in store for you on your journey to a new healthy lifestyle. You go girl!!
I have a new doctors appointment tomorrow (kind of nervous). I've got my agenda in an envelope ready to go over with her. My main issue is pain. Then, it's weight and then it's diabetes.
So, wish me luck.
Talking about mindless eating. OMGosh, that has been me for the last couple of weeks. It's been so bad, that I won't go near the scale.
I've been SO incredibly stressed out with the family life, that I've literally been on a non-stop eating binge. It's been scarry.
I wrote myself a note, (DH was at the cabin for the weekend) that was directed to him that said, "We have one of two choices. We either go to marriage/family counseling OR go see a divorce attorney."
Now I just have to force myself to say those words.
Anyway Nicki, I've got your back. You go through whatever the doctor advises and you'll be on your way to that healthy lifestyle.
Hope it works
Put a smile on my face!
Still it's taught me one thing. No matter how upset I get, eating a load of **** is no way to get my own back, on someone who is obviously so insensitive to the needs and feelings of others. They haven't a clue about it and the only person that suffers is me.
I'm sorry.
