Thank you all for the warm welcome back. You all are so very special, and I have really missed having you in my life.
Pat, I am the queen of transition...I normally handle it better than I have in recent months, but now I am back on track, and God willing, I will stay that way. We had company last night, and somehow they got talking about food, It was all I could do not to call for takeout or even worse, going for ice cream. Man, I was dying but I hung in there, and as soon as they left, I went to bed. I really needed to escape those urges, but I made it!!!
We are all in the same position...we all need to regroup and rededicate ourselves to this WOE, but more so, we need to rededicate to ourselves. We have truly been tested. This past year has really been more than I believed I could handle, and we all have gone through many transitions.
I have a suggestion for your house hunting, Pat. Try buyowner.com. There they have a list of houses that are for sale, you pick from whichever price you have allowed, how many bedrooms and baths, etc. They often have an inside tour of the house as well. They usually have a full description of the inside, and often pictures of most of the rooms. It will save you from taking the time going from house to house (at least for a while). I love checking it out. Besides drawing house plans, I love interior design and often get some wonderful ideas about decorating (good hobbies for my down times.
Sue, you are so much stronger than you think. No more being the frosting queen!!! (What is it with you and ice cream and cake???) If your dd is old enough to make the desserts, she's old enough to clean the mess and get rid of the extras so mom won't be tempted so often.
Congratulations on your new job. You don't have much time to get your house in order, but you need to concentrate on that instead of on food. Keep yourself busy...dance around the house while you are putting it in order. I would be elated to find I had a job.
Now, as I say all this, I will be honest with you. My life started crashing in November. I held on for as long as I could, but finally, I just let this place go. I honestly didn't care any more. I'm back on the wagon and doing as much as I can when I can, and I am getting back on track. I am doing it for ME! I love it when my house is clean (I was the queen of clean). I can stay more focused when I have order and cleanliness around me. I need it when I am writing...I don't want to have to worry about having to doi it while I am in the process of writing.
Terri, I understand the struggle of eating later at night. It was my downfall for a while. I hate to eat alone, and would wait for Greg to come home from work before I ate. Although more often than not I was staying OP, those late night meals made me gain weight. I"m glad you are getting back on track.
10 days without the kids is great for you. You can pull your life and your WOE back together. Make sure you take plenty of time for yourself...be good to YOU.
My precious sister Pam...You have been through so much and continue with your struggle as well. I am proud for you and your strength. Keep writing your emotions as you go through this very difficult time. I should have, but my struggle has been so degrading that I couldn't and still cannot talk about it.
I'm sorry about the loss of your furry one, but you know as well as I do that that little one is in a much better place and is romping and playing and very happy right now.
The anniversary of my Mom's death just passed on the 29th of June. For the first time in 10 years, I celebrated her anniversary by telling of the fun times we had. I finally think that I have learned to let the bad times and the pain go. She would have been 80 this year. You know, my mother committed suicide. She just gave up. I am my mothers daughter, and often entertained the thought that maybe she had the right idea, but more than being my mother's daughter, I am me, and I am much stronger. I have learned so much by her mistakes, and this has made me stronger. Your mother is in my prayers. I feel your suffering and your fear of losing her. I pray the Lord will give you a larger boost to help you through whatever He has planned for you.
I have Greg home with me for the rest of the week and weekend, but will try to get back here to keep up with you all. While he's home, I am unable to write very much or very well. I'm fortunate that I wake early in the morning...it gives me a couple of hours for myself before he's up and about.
My love and prayers for you all,
Remember...You are the daughter of the Heavenly King...that makes you a Princess! Feel like one...Look like one...Carry yourself like one.