Well, you guys. I did it. It took me days (weeks actually) of thinking and obsessing and worrying. But I felt I had to do it. I sat down and calculated...
I've been a WW member for 97 weeks. That's almost 2 years. Let's call it 100 weeks. In the first 50 (the first year) I lost 34 lbs. In the second 50 weeks, I lost .... are you sitting down? In 50 weeks (at $10 a week - that's $500!!!
) I lost 2.6 lbs.
OK, enough of this. All I was doing at WW was spending time and money and obsessing every time I put something in my mouth about what was going to happen when I got on the scale on Saturday morning. It was causing more stress than anything else. I couldn't even look forward to the weekend! So I thought about it for a long time. Then Rich and I sat down and discussed it thoroughly (I even showed him charts of my progress...or lack of) and we agreed. I talked to a gal here at work who's been going to the local gym (a former WW member) and she really likes the gym and has said I could go with her and give it a try. Maybe I'll do that. It's a 3-month trial membership to start with.
So after making the final decision last Thursday I spent a good part of the weekend being totally and completely out of control.
I know I can't keep eating just because I'm not going to WW meetings but now I'm so much less stressed about it. I don't feel guilty every time I eat anything at all and I don't feel cheated if I can't take part in a birthday cake at work or go out after work on a Friday night with some friends because I have to face that scale.
I still plan to watch what I eat and even count points. I mean, I went to WW for so long. I think I know the right thing to do by now. I just have to do it. All I know is that WW just wasn't working for me anymore. I still believe in it and think it's a great program and I'm certainly not going to try any of the fad diets out there. I am, however, going to try that gym and maybe tone up what I've got left here. Maybe that's just the kick my metabolism needs. I'm also planning to put $10 a week in a jar to "symbolize" the money I used to spend on WW. Maybe I'll get an added bonus out of this!
Yesterday was the parade and block party that I've been working on for the past 5 months or so. It's finally over. It was a huge success by the way but I'm seeing it as just one more stress out of my life. We have the follow up meeting on Tuesday night and then I'm free of that! I figure I'll stick with the MS fund-raisers and the bi-monthly breakfasts at the VFW. That's enough charity work for a while. And it'll give both me and Rich more time to work on the house which is waaaaaay behind schedule.
Anyway, there's my sob story. I do feel guilty about being a quitter but I'm hoping to redeem myself with workouts at the gym, keeping busy in the garden and around the house, etc. And I'll never forget what I've learned from WW.
Have to go now. Have to fill the water bottle. Some old habits will never change....
Love you guys.
Jo.