HELP! Well, I guess there's really nothing anyone else can do for me but it felt good to yell for a minute.
My boss is leaving in a few months. I work in a research environment. Who your principle investigator is determines what you do and when your PI goes, well good luck finding a position someplace else. They usually try to squeeze you into another group if your experience goes with what they are doing. Mine doesn't go with the other groups. My boss keeps saying, "you'll be ok for at least a year." And "I'm working on some things, don't panic yet."
Well, I can't help but be anxious and at first I was handling it well. Continued exercising, eat well but yesterday when I finished off a huge hunk of milk chocolate I realized that I'm on the slippery slope right now. I was thinking back to how much chocolate I've consumed in the last few weeks. Oh, dear...it's amazing I haven't gained any wieght yet.
I'm eating for emotional reasons and not for hunger and I'm slightly depressed so that leaves me feeling tired and sort of like the beginnings of a cold so I don't want to exercise but I know that I should because I'll probably feel better...whine, whine,
I know I'm being a baby
and making excuses but...hey... at least I'm catching it before too much damage.
So this morning I pulled out my small size jeans (for me anyway) and sucked in my gut to wear them today to remind me that I need to be careful of what I eat.... Now if I can just get off my lazy butt and get back to exercising
I have this fear that I'll get complacent and one day wake up and see me the way I was a couple years ago.
Keep me in your thoughts/prayers please. I need it at this point.