I arrived home yesterday from Cambodia and am just exhausted... I feel like I could sleep for a week.
Cambodia was an amazing experience and I cant wait to return with my husband and my child. The first few days I just got around with a gobsmacked face on.. It is a country that is very difficult to describe, it is encompassed by so many dual features... It has this beautiful quality, yet you are surrounded by dirt and filth in the streets, The people have been so challenged by poverty and war and yet are so generous and welcoming, these kids have so little yet automatically share, there is so much poverty and right next to it are absurd excesses (mostly by western NGOs) your senses are bombarded in every regard and it can be so overwhelming and yet I experienced moments of great peace and serenity...
I am so grateful for the experience and am very joyful to be with my husband and child again.
Sadly enough, there was a distinct lack of Khmer food and we ate alot of western food.. mostly pasta. When we got to know people we were able to ask for Khmer food which was lovely.
I have never been that physically challenged in my life..the heat was amazing but by the last few days I was fine..
In Cambodia my friend and I were constantly hastled about our weight. But mostly in a positive way, it is hard to describe. For some one to be my size they must be really wealthy and to be able to afford the food to be this big is a totally abberant concept for the Khmer people that I met. So they would ask questions like "why are you so fat" and " what happened to you". but even though it was very challenging it was just a cultural diffrnce that I hadn't anticipated.. i had one women rub my arm and squeeze me telling me that I must be very lucky! LOL...
The first couple of days were very rough to be quite honest.. My weight was confronting in a manner that I had never experienced.... There was no hiding from it or avoiding the issue.. I am very glad to have been this uncomfortable and challenging.. when I was asked what I was doing letting myself be this fat it really hit home. Yes indeed.. what am I doing????
But I have to admit to not eating food that was that great.. but not by choice, so I will leave weighing myself until Monday. I look forward to loosing more weight. I wont go back to Phase 1, I will start on Phase 2 and see how I go... But I am feeling confident in a wat that I haven't felt before.
So I will see you all around the boards.. and I hope that everyone is going well.