Hi Xan!
How serendipitous..was just going to lurk around, wallow in my shame a bit and then I saw your post. As if you were reading my mind! I, too am a serial rejoiner (love that). Been slogging through TTC hades, and fell off the wagon.
I have been off the fertility hormones for two cycles now and am slowly feeling like myself again and so I really want to get back on track and be healthy and in tune with myself.
In all the insanity in TTC, I completely lost sight of me. The painful experiences were too hard to bear but I felt I had to move forward, no time to grieve etc (doctors pressuring me as I am 40 already.."Every month counts!") and I turned to food. Only sporadic exercise. I just shut down and stuffed my face.
And these are my Achilles' heels: stress, pain, denial, sickness
I love the South Beach way of life, the food is delicious and I always feel amazing when I stay OP...however! as soon as life hits the proverbial fan, it seems way too strenuous to maintain healthy habits...the prep, the grocery shopping etc just feels like a millstone around my neck.
Long story short: back on the beach, semester is over so hoping to find the spark, that motivation for the cleansing P1 and looking forward to hanging out with all you inspiring chicas.