Mortified

jenne1017 · 07-09-2011, 09:10 PM

I am currently sitting at a Six Flags park and am holding back tears. I've been dreading coming here all summer because I was sure I wouldn't fit on the rides because I am too big. Nephew really wanted to come so we took him. I did so well, eating before we came, serving of nuts and water water! Got on the first coaster, no worries! Room to spare. Second too! Third was an over the head harness and I nearly peed myself waiting on line but it too fit.

With my new found sense of pride, I got on line for my second favorite coaster of any theme park. We waited for 40 minutes and...

The seat belt did not fit.

I bid DW and nephew a safe ride and went out the exit and cried. How did I get like this? My favorite coaster within 500 miles and I am too fat to fit.

I am looking at this as a challenge for the end of October - to fit before the park closes for the season.

But, it still hurts. So I wait for them to get their funnel cakes and sulk. Ugh!!!

CyndiM · 07-09-2011, 09:16 PM

Oh Jenne, what a disappointment.

I know you enough to make a pretty good guess that you will dust yourself off and use this as inspiration to move forward and get healthy. Time to plan that mini-goal trip back and start working toward it. Tonight though I'm sending extra

cottagebythesea · 07-09-2011, 09:17 PM

Jenne,

I feel your pain, but look at how far you've come! You DID fit into the other rides, and that's PROGRESS! You WILL succeed and be able to ride any of the rides with ease before much longer. Just hang in there, I know you can do it!

jenne1017 · 07-09-2011, 09:18 PM

The funnel cakes sitting next to me aren't helping either...thanks Cyn

bargoo · 07-09-2011, 09:19 PM

I have no doubt that it will fit next time, with room to spare!!

cottagebythesea · 07-09-2011, 09:20 PM

Funnel cakes = a pile of lard, flour and sugar. Who really needs that?

jenne1017 · 07-09-2011, 09:20 PM

You too cottage. I keep welling up with tears trying not to eat my feelings. Ugh! Thanks for both of your quick replies!!

CyndiM · 07-09-2011, 09:21 PM

I'm not a big believer in the "nothing tastes as good as thin feels" but I do know those funnel cakes will make you feel better for 5 minutes (and you know how I know!) Getting in that ride next summer will feel a whole lot better. You can do this my friend.

cottagebythesea · 07-09-2011, 09:21 PM

We have your back, Jenne!

CyndiM · 07-09-2011, 09:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by cottagebythesea

Funnel cakes = a pile of lard, flour and sugar. Who really needs that?

Okay, I've never had one and now I will always think of this description and I'm sure I never will.

jenne1017 · 07-09-2011, 09:23 PM

You too boogoo!! They are done with them, I didn't eat any and I am heading home now. Thank you all again. I knew you'd get it!

jenne1017 · 07-09-2011, 09:40 PM

And you are both totally right - they are delicious for 5 minutes but totally maiden with lard. I will always remember how I felt tonight whenever I put fat in my mouth. WHAT A LESSON!!!

Lexxiss · 07-10-2011, 04:33 AM

Dearest jenne,

I hope you are feeling a bit better today after such a painful experience yesterday.

I got home late and my heart ached for you. It took great strength to post your disappointment here and I was very touched by all the kind and comforting words sent back to you.

I know where you're coming from because one of my final devestating moments was at the amusement park. We went to ride the roller coaster and it was closed for maintenance. I was disappointed, but in reality already knew that I might not fit. Instead, we decided to ride "The Chipmunk". I thought I'd be ok because there was no restraint....we sat on the same seat one in front of the other. Well I got in first, in the front, and DH got in behind. We were so tight and I panicked. I spent the entire ride thinking I might need assistance getting out...like we might be literally "stuck". I don't know how we ever got out unassisted but I was just sick. I put on a happy face and continued but when it was time to "share" our traditional funnel cake I told my DH that I wanted him to enjoy it but that if I was going to change I could no longer eat them, not even one bite.

Resisting the funnel cakes was a major accomplishment! They taste so good yet for me, they very vividly represent the food that I loved so much which absolutely contributed to making me fat. *sigh* I haven't had a single bite since.*sigh* Maybe I'll have one someday, when I'm at goal and maintaining, but reality is "I'm not at goal". It is so hard to resist when others don't have to. The next time you're near one, remember me, sitting next to you, resisting with you.

TwynnB · 07-10-2011, 07:24 AM

I finally checked out "the beck solution" from the library that everyone keeps talking about here. I'm only on day one...making the list of why you want to lose weight. Here's a great item to put on the list!!

You're tough Jenne!! We know you can do it!

Ruthxxx · 07-10-2011, 07:29 AM

Aw, Jenn. Big hugs to you. I just read parts of you Blog and know how tough you are. So glad you are back on the Beach.