So Close! (a mini rant)
Argh- do you ever just have one of those days, or weeks, where you feel like this weight will never.go.away? I have been hovering under 202 for weeks now, and I still can't get that elusive, beautiful, 199. Oh I've been close, I've been 200.5 for almost two weeks, with random, overnight, 2.5 pound gains (very, very unusual for me) This morning I got to 200. Seriously? I couldn't just squeak out an extra half a pound to get me under 200?
I KNOW that this weight will come off, I KNOW that I have lost almost 40 pounds (if that stupid 199 would just get here...) But I don't feel that way. I'm frustrated because everyone else around me is losing weight and I'm just kind of stalling out. It's even more frustrating because my mom and sister are doing WW and have each lost 10 pounds in the last month. I get all of the "well atleast on my plan I can eat whatever I want in moderation" and blah blah. Yes, that is lovely for you. It doesn't work for me. One- moderation is very, very difficult for me. Two, I don't want to have count things for the rest of my life. Three- even with calorie counting, I never lost weight or kept it off like I have with SB. SB is the plan for me, it works, I just wish it was working faster.
I want to pout and stomp my feet and complain about how unfair the world is. I'm pissed because 199 puts me in onderland, out of obesity, AND at 40 pounds lost. I should be there by now. We're leaving on a trip with some friends this weekend. I wanted to be 198. It should have been easy, it was only a pound a week and I was losing 2-3 a week. I'm not going to make it. I set a goal at the beginning of last month that once I got under 200, I was going to get a nice haircut and mix things up. Now, I feel like an idiot if I get it cut this close to, but not at, my goal, even though it is driving me crazy. I just feel like I am stuck in weightloss purgatory.
Blerf. Sorry for the rant. It's just been one of those weeks. Anyone else?
Fighting back from the regain
Strong is the new skinny.