OMG, it was so hard to get up this morning. I need some serious coffee!
Yesterday was not a great day. It was my son's kindergarten moving up ceremony and I really wish I had let myself cry, because that is what I really felt like doing. Instead I walked around in a sort of haze feeling numb. I am the sort of person who feels very unsettled when routines change or fall apart. These last few days of school are very weird - the kids are coming home with all their things (changes of clothes, desk name plates, final workbooks etc.) and it's just very unsettling for me. Of course, I also can't believe my son, who was a baby in diapers what feels like yesterday, will be in first grade next fall.
Then I got to work and found out my boss had changed my job responsibilities *once again* without discussing it with me, so I heard it from someone else. This time I actually got so mad that I went to HR and had an off the record venting session with the director there. I just feel like someone needs to have some knowledge of what is going on. Our whole school gets raises that take effect on July 1 (although we don't all get paid on that day, the raise becomes effective on that day). We haven't had a raise in two years so of course everyone is very anxious to find out the amount of their raise. The whole school has received their raise letters from their department heads - except my department. For whatever reason, the information is being withheld from us.
I am determined that today is going to be a better day, or at least I hope so. I feel mad and upset but I am proud I DID NOT go off plan last night with wine and chips as I soooooooo wanted to do. Sorry for the vent, and I hope everyone else has a great day today.