So, yesterday I had a conversation with my dh , a very difficult one as he has tendency to get defensive and it's even hard for me to talk about at all with him.
What precipitated it was a statement he made which was innocent on his part but still, it made me upset. I stewed over it for awhile, then tried to tell myself to get over it as I knew he wasn't trying to be mean or offensive..
then I remember consciously thinking, for the first time in my life, that if I do not talk about it, broach the subject with him, that I will eat my feelings. It surely would have been the end of being on plan. It was really weird bc I have never put the 2 and 2 together before (for myself)
Whats also really weird is that although it (the subject matter) bothers me every day for years, the last time I got up the nerve to broach the subject with him was the last time I was on plan (about 2.5 yrs ago!!). At that time, I chaclked up the timing of it as I was finally getting confident enough to ask.. But this time I know that's not really true. I don't feel more confident yet. So both times it was because I was no longer eating my emotions to stifle them. Then, atg a certain point, somethin's gotta give, or you fall back into emotional eating.
I am proud that I finally made the connection for myself
Kinda private but I just had to share