Well, looks like I'm on my post vacation let down. After all of the success and warm feelings about food on vacation - I found myself having to run from the junk food isle yet again, knowing I could not be trusted to be near it. I came home, found an OLD m&m in the couch cushions...looked at it for a long time...then finally found the strength to throw it away. I ACTUALLY got it out of the trash can and flushed it down the toilet because I wasn't sure it was safe from me!!! I'm disgusted by the thought of that!!!!
Tell me that is not addictive behavior...I have never had an addiction problem (according to md's) but this sure feels like one! I feel the need to tell you that I am not a disgusting person! I do not eat out of my couch cushion and certainly not out of my trash can.
After all of that - it was a HARD day but I did not cheat...even with nice, properly stored food items. I am afraid to let myself slip up because I KNOW it's a slippery slope for me...right back into incredibly unhealthy habits.
Has anyone else been through this? It's as if I go through days where I'm actually morning the loss of the food.....that's the best way I can explain it.