Phase I Chick-Check - Week of August 24

Jenskihere · 08-28-2008, 06:24 PM

I am making the kids tacos for dinner tonight, I am going to have that FF bean recipe! I am going to add some avocado for my oils.

Mel - good job on the bread! I don't know if I could have been as strong!

Fat Melanie · 08-28-2008, 06:24 PM

I've been dying to try those ricotta pancakes and stuff, with the SF syrup but I haven't got around to getting the ingredients yet. I need a change as well. Eggs become so mundane after awhile.

Edit: I don't know how I was that strong, I still want the bread but I won't. I'm sitting here telling myself, what will that bread do for you? It's white flour, refined crap that smells good to trick you. It will go right into your bloodstream and cause you to have crazy cravings later on... this book I was reading by High Voltage said, if you eat that bread it's going RIGHT TO YOUR THIGHS!!!

zeffryn · 08-28-2008, 06:31 PM

Mel, are you still on P1? Get your butt to P2, girl!

Also, distract yourself with something else.....read, clean, go out for a walk.....sitting idly makes cravings SO much worse.

Fat Melanie · 08-28-2008, 06:56 PM

I can't, 'cause I keep screwing up ever since I supposedly 'went back on ph 1', I never really did it, nor completed it, or even did it half-assedly. Of course, I had all intentions on doing so but I've been having severe cravings that did lead to my downfall, because I am weak, simply weak. Some days I would do well, and then cave towards the end of the day. The first few days of I did do well, but then started going off plan constantly. I'm seeing why, though, so I'm making notes. Mental notes anyway.

Today I've been clean except for two slices of salami on a salad and olives as well as dressing. So hopefully another 13 days of being clean and I'll be on ph 1.5. I have a problem with doing a phase 1 day well, screwing up the next day and feeling like it's blown and I have to restart. I feel like I keep restarting. I need to just trudge through ph 1 and keep going.

zeffryn · 08-28-2008, 07:09 PM

stop restarting....just go. Try as hard as you can to have the cleanest p1 you can and then move to P2. Don't think about it so much. Just do.

Jenskihere · 08-28-2008, 10:13 PM

and throw that darn bread out so you stop thinking of it! I have learned if I have a trigger food in the house(like brownies!!), I will keep grazing everytime I hit the kitchen. So I throw the stuff out! Then I won't touch it! So, get up, walk to the kitchen and throw the bread out, your BF doesn't need it either! :-)

wife2abadge · 08-30-2008, 09:03 AM

Day One of SBD here -- first time. I had the cheesy frittata for breakfast. It was quite delicious, but took a really long time to make. I guess it will be a weekends only breakfast. I cooked the Chock Full of Veggies Chili yesterday, so that will be lunch, and I'm making the Gingered Pork Loin for dinner.

Doing without bread won't be a big deal for me -- it's doing without dessert that will be difficult. I work with 90% women and there is a constant stream of treats coming into the building and sitting out where we walk by constantly. Do you veterans think it gets easier to ignore that stuff as time goes by or more difficult as your enthusiasm for dieting wanes?

zeffryn · 08-30-2008, 12:37 PM

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Originally Posted by wife2abadge

Day One of SBD here -- first time. I had the cheesy frittata for breakfast. It was quite delicious, but took a really long time to make. I guess it will be a weekends only breakfast. I cooked the Chock Full of Veggies Chili yesterday, so that will be lunch, and I'm making the Gingered Pork Loin for dinner.

Doing without bread won't be a big deal for me -- it's doing without dessert that will be difficult. I work with 90% women and there is a constant stream of treats coming into the building and sitting out where we walk by constantly. Do you veterans think it gets easier to ignore that stuff as time goes by or more difficult as your enthusiasm for dieting wanes?

With the frittatas, I usually make one or two on the weekends and then save them for the week. A few seconds in the microwave and they are perfect.

For me, the ignoring desserts gets easier....

Fat Melanie · 08-31-2008, 02:41 AM

Man, I'm gonna need a slap in the face in lieu of support. I am binging like all-get-out and it's not only disgusting behavior, but it's disgusting behavior partly brought on by anxiety, which only causes more anxiety because I KNOW I'm screwing up and it's making me physicaly ill (bloating, diarrhea, TMI, oh well).

Phase 1 cannot be salvaged at this point.

Tomorrow I have to be at two different cookouts... so, I'm not even going to bother trying to start again tomorrow. I already know I won't be able to do it and I'll be mentally beating myself up when I get home, and then I'll tear into the rest of the cheesecake I have (yes, I have cheesecake, like I said I have been binging and acting crazy. I really DO understand now how things with bad carbs make you binge later, it is clear as day to me now that SBD is the right way to go and that Dr Agatson really knows what he's talking about. He's no damn quack for sure.) So, I've got to get back OP on Monday, get some more lettuce for salads, and a few other items, and GET BACK ON THE WAGON.

God, I'm like an alcoholic falling off the wagon, maybe I should join an overeaters anonymous. Now that's food for thought. Wonder if they have any in my area.

Okay, chicks, please shout and yell and everything else you can say to help me get back on track Monday. I'm feeling like absolute crap from the crappy foods, both physically and mentally. The scale has gone up MASSIVELY.

URGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! *drama queen scream*

CyndiM · 08-31-2008, 08:09 AM

Melanie - throw that cheesecake out! I know I hate wasting food too but you have to remember you are not a garbage disposal unit. So you messed up yesterday, doesn't mean you have to today. Toss it out and consider it a diet related expense, then get back on plan.

wife2abadge · 08-31-2008, 06:03 PM

It sounds as though you need to find another way to deal with your anxiety. Bingeing as you are describing it isn't about the food as much as it is about you trying to avoid something with food and then using the "I blew it now, I might as well eat everything I can until I start again" mentality to eat more. Things with "bad" carbs do not make you binge -- you are making the choice to deal with your feelings by bingeing. Believe me, I have much empathy for you. I spent many, many years alternately dieting, bingeing, and overexercising, punctuated by relatively sane periods when I maintained my weight loss. When I binged, I felt as though I were completely DRIVEN and helpless in the presence of food. This past winter I finally sought therapy with a woman who specializes in eating disorders, and I haven't binged in many months.

Overeaters Anonymous has helped many people, but I found it very unrealistic, and full of overweight people "messing up" again and again and again. They make you feel guilty if you eat a cookie. There aren't too many people who can go for the rest of their lives without eating a cookie. The best thing is to learn to live with eating an occasional cookie and not immediately following it up with everything in the refrigerator because you "failed". Have you ever thought about getting therapy?

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Originally Posted by Fat Melanie

Man, I'm gonna need a slap in the face in lieu of support. I am binging like all-get-out and it's not only disgusting behavior, but it's disgusting behavior partly brought on by anxiety, which only causes more anxiety because I KNOW I'm screwing up and it's making me physicaly ill (bloating, diarrhea, TMI, oh well).

Phase 1 cannot be salvaged at this point.

Tomorrow I have to be at two different cookouts... so, I'm not even going to bother trying to start again tomorrow. I already know I won't be able to do it and I'll be mentally beating myself up when I get home, and then I'll tear into the rest of the cheesecake I have (yes, I have cheesecake, like I said I have been binging and acting crazy. I really DO understand now how things with bad carbs make you binge later, it is clear as day to me now that SBD is the right way to go and that Dr Agatson really knows what he's talking about. He's no damn quack for sure.) So, I've got to get back OP on Monday, get some more lettuce for salads, and a few other items, and GET BACK ON THE WAGON.

God, I'm like an alcoholic falling off the wagon, maybe I should join an overeaters anonymous. Now that's food for thought. Wonder if they have any in my area.
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kshe78 · 08-31-2008, 06:04 PM

Melanie -

Because you ASKED for it...........

You know what you are doing wrong, and believe me, I've been there and done that a million times myself. But WHY can't you do well at a cookout? Grilled chicken......salad......fruit if you just shifted to Phase 2. None of that there? Great, take it WITH YOU. You can't rely on others to provide what you should be eating, so you could go, and take a good salad with you to share.

And WHY is the cheesecake still in the house? You fell off the wagon and had a couple of pieces. That happens. But WHY, after you were mad at yourself for those 2 pieces, did the cheesecake not go in the trash?

How many weeks have you been trying to do Phase 1? I know it's been more than 2 weeks, right? Maybe if you went to Phase 2, you would feel that you had a little more freedom, and then you wouldn't be 'cheating' so much?

You CAN do this - you know exactly what to do....I can read that in your posts. So it's just Melanie deciding when Melanie is worth fighting for. Big hugs and happy days ahead to you.

Fat Melanie · 08-31-2008, 07:11 PM

Thanks guys.

I appreciate it.

CyndiM, I didn't throw away the cheesecake, but that's only because my BF ate it so that freed me from wasting it. (or ultimately, shoveling it in!) If he hadn't, I think I would have read you guyses posts and thrown it out. It would have been tough, but I think I could have done it. I'm not sure though, unless faced with it again, and I hope not to be.

Wife2abadge, that definitely sounds like me. I'm always like, 'well I binged and I feel like crap so I may as well start the diet back up so-and-so-day... and then keep eating like crap until that day.' There is no reason why I couldn't start back up today. You guys, I managed to avoid both of the cookouts I mentioned and thank god. I ate some blueberries today, which isn't phase 1, but way better than junkfood. Tonight I'm making frozen leftover turkey parmesan.

I have been seriously thinking about getting into therapy for diet issues as well as mental health issues.

Kshe, that's a good suggestion, if I end up going to a cookout anytime soon, to bring a huge salad (and then probably my own grilled chicken, since in the south, it's always fried or smothered with some kind of sauce.) Thank you for the straight-up talk.

So, today, I'm eating well. Tomorrow, back on phase 1 and I'm going to post in this section religiously until I have done 14 days straight of a CLEAN PHASE 1. I swear.

CyndiM · 08-31-2008, 08:50 PM

Great job Melanie! Throwing food out is really hard for me too but I've had to learn to do it. I just keep reminding myself that my body is not a garbage disposal. Even good food like the half serving of food left from dinner is a problem. Before I just would have eaten it even though I wasn't hungry. Now either I figure out a way to mix it with something else so it makes a meal or I compost it. All that clean plate, children are starving in China crap helped get me where I was and I have to stop thinking that way or I'll end up right back where I was or worse. It ain't easy though. You made a huge step today now keep moving in the direction you want to go

You CAN do it!

Fat Melanie · 08-31-2008, 09:29 PM

"Clean your plate, there are starving children in China who would LOVE to have what you have on your plate, now FINISH it!" Yep, I've been told all of that stuff too.

Definitely not easy.

Thank you for the support.

It makes it easier.