I’ve recently realised that in addition to all the other “side effects” of being overweight, I have also been passed over in my job for a while now. It took me some time to figure it out, because they don’t just come out and tell you straight out: “We can’t have an unpresentable fat girl dealing with clients and representing our business.” Plus for a while I though it was the fact that I didn’t have a BA, but I just graduated this summer and now I do have a BA and 7 years of experience with the company. That’s when it hit me – I’m too fat to be on the higher-up levels. I’m a good enough “work horse”, but that’s it.
It probably doesn’t help that my self-confidence is suffering because I hate the way I look. And don’t get me wrong, I make decent money, I don’t hate my job, sometimes I even enjoy it. But it still hurts to realise that all the bull**** my bosses have been telling me about “you need to show initiative, get involved, blah, blah, blah” was just a pretty cover for “You’re too damn fat.”