Why in the world didnt i care about my body earlier in life? Its not because I wasnt taught how to, my mother lived in the gym. We had healthy food, for the most part but I was just eat and eat ( more emotional than anything). She would always tell me I was "ruining my body" but I honestly and truely didnt care. I was fat, I liked to eat, and if people didnt like it then they didnt have to look at me. It wasnt until about 3-4 years ago that I really decided that I cared. Now.. that I am almost to goal I did "ruin" my body, I cant blame it on " oh I have 2 kids" I mean sure, it contributed, but I was fat before I ever had kids, I was just fatterrrr after them and thats because I thought it was a ticket to eat and eat and eat. Ive never had a healthy relationship with food, and I probably still dont, only difference is now, I control the food, it doesnt control me. I remember I would eat until it hurt, and I would TELL MYSELF.. " I dont care how fat I get" WTF? I know that I can only embrace my body and move forward, but I hate that I did that to myself, and the loose skin that I have in my inner thighs , my stomach and my arms are reminders of that everyday. Really Really Sucks. I am greatful I learned how to love myself before it was too late. Ahh.. had to get that out