I'm always trying to think of why I gained weight in the first place.
I was always ( I believe) a happy child. I wasn't abused. There was always enough food. I can't think of any huge calamitous reasons I would become so overweight in the first place. I was always a consistent overeater. I didn't have HUGE binges to the point of becoming sick, and I never made myself throw up. I just always ate too much and probably for the wrong reasons a lot of the time. I think a lot of it had to do with mindless eating, eating out of boredom, and eating to soothe uncomfortable feelings. I'm one of those people who feels guilty about anything REALLY easily, so I think I also always had trouble saying no. It's so interesting that now that I'm really thinking about what I'm eating instead of being on automatic pilot, I see so much.
I hope that people understand that when I say "no thank you" to a morsel of food, it's because I really don't want it or because I'm not hungry, and not because I have an eating disorder.
I see a lot of automatic eating going on around me, and that's fine. I understand that. But I realize I need to stay away from that kind of behavior or all 90 pounds I worked so hard to lose will come back, plus some.
I can actually detect the moments when I have the impulse to eat because I'm having an uncomfortable thought or feeling. It's uncanny! Sometimes I give in to it and have just a small amount, but at least I thought about it.
Here's to hoping that if we really figure out how we got into this in the first place, this can be the last time we ever have to lose our excess weight. A "diet" with all kinds of stringent and cruel restrictions, in my opinion, is not going to work, unless we get to the bottom of this. Anyone have any other ideas?