ok guys, i'm here to admit - totally stressed & sleeping all the time. i posted a bit earlier about my $$$ issues on a different board and not having enough to buy GOOD HEALTHY groceries...etc...and that stresses me out...
but now here's another topic / problem. lately - i've been coming home from work and basically sleeping ALL freaking day. i work from 6 a.m. - 2 p.m. - and just to say, i LOVE my job, (well, for the most part) - but being that I really don't have a lot of extra money or anything to DO - asides from one extra curricular activity...i seriously come home and sleep.
now, i DO take TaeKwonDo, which i LOVE - but it's a 40 minute round trip to go TO my classes and when i get home at 2 p.m. and class isn't until 6:30 - by 5:30 when it's time to go - this week especially "tom" is visiting - i haven't gone once (normally i do go about twice a week)...but seriously - i don't know what it is...but i will come home and sleep all day. and the only friends i have are AT work + my rommate (who i get sick of every now and then...)
but i so haven't been "on plan" in such a long time - i've been fairly good at maintaining my weight scale wise, but i'm just basically getting into a depression because of stress / money / not having a TON of friends / no boyfriend.
i dunno - i just have absolutely NO motivation whatsoever to do ANYTHING. asides from go to work, come home and sleep - and, again, on my "normal" weeks (no TOM) i DO go to TKD about twice a week, but on the other days i sleep when i come home. and weekends are HORRIBLE....well, sundays at least anyways. i work tue - sat and so of course i get sun & mon off. mondays are usually my errand days and i like my mondays cuz i AM running around doing things i need to do (like i always go to the library to get new audio books to listen to at work)... but sundays - i stay in the house ALL day long. i think to myself, "it's still summer - i LOVE summer - i know i'll regret this come winter - so i SHOULD go out and take a walk or something"...yet i don't. instead i stay in and watch tv all day - which, btw, i hate TV - asides from HGTV, the food network, and style channel - i don't watch cable - and i honestly watch MAYBE a total of 3 hours during the week - i'm just not a big tv person anymore - of course not including sundays.
but example, today - i came home at 2 - locked myself in my room and woke up around 6. now, i know "naps" can be healthy - but coming home and sleeping from after work until 7 / 8 at night and then going back to sleep at 11 just to wake up at 5:30 the next day and do it all over again????
i HATE this! and the fact that i have NO boyfriend / no friends asides from a few at work - who are way too busy with their own lives after work to do anything...and i have NO $$$ to go do anything after work that requires $$$...
my bills stress me out so much - which, i AM trying to knock down and also i'm looking into moving departments at work for #1 a different schedule (mon - fri 8 - 5) but even if i DO get something, it wouldn't go into affect until at LEAST november (i have to wait a year from my hire date - oct 24) and #2 more money...but again that won't be until november. i HAVE put in my application at a few resteraunts for a serving position - but i'd MUCH rather just try to get a higher paid position at the company i'm already at than try to work 40 hours where i'm at PLUS 15 - 20 somewhere else. (btw, i make about $12.60 / hr - which by my terms is FANTASTIC compared to what i used to make...i even have my college degree but not using it...) but seriously what i make is NOT enough to sustain me.
plus, as much as i love my roommate, i REALLLLLLLLY want to live on my own again, but i can't because sharing rent is the ONLY way i can live right now (we pay $355 each).
i dunno - maybe i just needed to really vent all that out. i just seriously need some advice on what to do during the day that doesn't cost ANY $$$ so that i'm not coming home and going straight to sleep after work.
i mean - the reason i'm posting here, of course, too - i can't even come CLOSE to concentrating on my healthy lifestyle. i eat junk (it's cheap) and i've basically quit exercising, asides from taekwondo - which i LOVE but again, it's a 40 minute round trip and gas is expensive!!!
ugh. thanks. i needed that.