Official loss as of today: 30lbs in 34 days.
I am glad, but for some reason, I am having a very emotional time with this. I have a need to SABBOTAGE myself. Normally, I would have by now...something in me tells me I don't deserve to lose weight.
The longer I do this, the harder it Mentally becomes. I just want to be able to eat normal like everyone else... ok, well not normal - Healthy normal!
Deep down, I am very grateful for this opportunity, and I am SOOOO glad it works. It really takes alot of work to deal with the emotions and behaviors that get so interweaved with eating/food. My counselor helps though. I don't think I'm going to slip up. I think in a day or two I will move through this emotional slump.
What do you do to build up your mentality/positive attitude in a time like this?
I am NEVER getting this fat again. I don't ever want to go through this again.