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Originally Posted by Repo girl
Well, DH weighed me last night. I don't think that he was very impressed with the results, because then he sat me down and said that I have GOT to start exercising again, no matter what. He was trying really hard to be motivational, and I do appreciate him trying to pump me up, but the whole conversation had me in tears. In fact, I am in tears right now just talking about it. I guess he really brought a lot of my WL fears right to the surface. My TOM is due any minute now, so that does not help much, either. I am really an emotional mess right now. I am still seeing moving pictures in my head of the whole horrible scene with Peaches the other day, and I can't seem to get rid of them. Like I told Dairy, I wish that I had Dumbledore's pensieve. Anyway, DH pointed out that when I was getting up and exercising every day, I was not depressed, and my health was better. I got up this morning and jumped back in to the BL DVD. Wish I could say that it was magic, and I feel back to 100 % now, but I still don't. I am going to commit to exercising every day in May. I have my LAWL calender that they gave me at the first of the year, and I am going to start charting too, like Angelica. I CAN DO THIS! I WILL DO THIS!
Oh Katie - My dearest dearest chickie - You just break my heart. I'm so saddened that you are upset!! Hopefully you just perceived DH's impression of the results differently than he really felt. You know as well as everyone else that with you starting TOM - that could have a huge impact on that scale. I will agree with one thing - you could tell a difference in your energetic posts and excitement when you were working out,,,,but with that said - I was thinking of you this morning on the way to work. I thought - You know Katie has been really quiet lately. I hope she is okay and isn't depressed about anything - Not sure what I had these feelings, but I did. I was even going to im you after lunch, but then I saw your post. Please do not get down -
you have done an OUTSTANDING,FABULOUS,AMAZING,WONDERFUL job at changing your life, losing weight and becoming a much healthier person all around. I know the events of the past few weeks still bother you - but that like all other tragedys will take time to heal. You've had so much going on at least in the past week - so please don't beat yourself up - try to take it one day at a time - don't wear yourself out on the BL workout -= do it every other day to get back into it - see how you feel - as you do more and more - it will provide you with more energy and feeling better.
It really did bring tears to my eyes to see you so down. You are an inspiration to so many on this board and you are like many of our personal COD counselor - You are so knowledgable and we consider you such a wealth of information - you know why??
BECAUSE YOU ARE A SUCCESS - YOU HAVE MADE THIS PLAN WORK - NOT ONLY FOR YOU - BUT MANY OTHERS - YOU HAVE THE COMPASSION TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE AND TRY TO DETERMINE WHY THEY ARE HAVING TROUBLE. most people just take care of themselves - but look how many lives you affect in such a positive way - You have 18 kids daily that you love and take care of the neccesities - that is something the "ordinary" person just can't do - or wouldn't do........
I just want you to know that you are a wonderful person. Take your time - get back into "your" mode and things will work themselves out. Sometimes DH try to help motivate - but their words are just not as compassionate as we would like them to be - Remember he is only trying to help you and Mars is very very different from Venus!!! (trying to make you smile)
We love you girl!!!