I am wondering if I am making a fuss for nothing...I am five seven. I wear a size 30/32 pants (waist/inseam), size 8-10 women's pants ( not those horrid low rise pants, regular pants) and although I do not have much muscle definition, I do not consider myself to be all that heavy. Like most people, I could benefit from some added exersize and weights, to sculpt and firm the doughyness I do have...the doughyness that many women have.
What I dont' get is that i weigh 160. I don't get it. I've always been this way my entire life. In grade school, I was heavier than the "fattest kid" in school. I could hold him up on a see saw with no effort on my part..I'm not large, I'm just heavy.
If this is muscle, where is it? I know that I shouldn't get hung up on what the scale says, but when every thing I read says I should weigh 135? I've never weighed 135 as long as I can remember!
I've been doing weight watchers since 2002 and went from 220 ( size 14 ) to 145 ( size 6)...I've stayed on plan, but have been stuck for a few months now.
I notice that I tend to binge or have a "bad day" when I think about this too much. Everyone around me is astonished that I weigh as much as I do, even though I don't look like it. However, I feel like such a freak because even though I try to go by how I look and feel, 160 seems so heavy, and it makes any "normal" weight seems so far away in comparison. Am I insane? What is going on here?
Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself, but I"ve been spending the last hour online looking at diet pills. I know that it's not healthy, but I'm desperate, and quite possibly for all the wrong reasons.
Thank you for letting me rant.