Dawnyal's life has been extremely hectic and I can't see it slowing down anytime soon. I have backslid so far on my scale I couldn't tell you what I weigh right now. We had William's surgery almost two weeks ago and yesterday was the first day he actually acted like my happy-go-lucky child and was actually laughing and playing. Chris is out of school (He is staying with MIL right now but should be coming back home and will be having baseball games).
We had our spring expo with the newpaper a week ago Saturday. The following Monday and Tuesday were really rough because of playing catch up for the ads we didn't get to build on Thursday and Friday. We found out on Tuesday that Carrie would be back in her hometown on Friday and would be going to her celebration. My mom's Relay for Life event was Friday night, my coworker's daughter had her birthday party on Saturday and we went to the Zoo yesterday (I'll post a couple of pics.) Our Relay for life is this Friday and Saturday and I'm the team captain. I have to work all day friday and then stay up all night and be done at 6 a.m. on Saturday.
In the meantime I have given up all my healthy eating habits, gotten in very little exercise and to be honest I just don't care. I've sat down and thought over it and thought over it and for me at this moment the cost of me not having to worry about what I eat is less than the effort I have to put forth to get healthy. I know we all have to find it in ourselves to want to lose weight and I have misplaced IT. Every time I tell myself it's time to start over and get with it, I get overwhelmed.
It hit me yesterday though what my problem is. I keep trying to start where I left off when everything fell into place nicely and I had all those good habits in place. I'm trying to make myself stay accountable for that standard of living and I'm not there yet and get discouraged because I can't do something I could do a month ago.
Where does that leave me today? I'm staying away from my scale because I don't want that number to scare me. I can still fit into my size 20 stretch jeans (albeit a bit tight) so I know that I haven't gained all I've lost and I'm going to concentrate on getting in daily exercise. I have to remind myself that I didn't just get all those habits in place at once that it took me over a year to slowly add them one by one and I can't expect them to all just come back.
As you read above, I've had 3 days of exercise: Friday I walked for 45 minutes for mom's relay for life team, Saturday I roller skated for about 30 minutes and yesterday we spent about 5 hours at the zoo with at least 3 hours of walking.
If you got this far, thanks for reading. I know that I will get IT back one of these days. I haven't totally given up on myself.
Here's the zoo pics.
Family portrait
Nana & Pappaw
Lilly relaxing in the stroller
William pointing out the donkeys