Sandi, your letter to your son and family made me cry. I have made that vow to my 3 year old son Christian as well. He is my rock, and he does deserve the best I can give him. And I know I would just be so hurt to see him hurt by other kid's cruel comments about his fat mom. So I write at the top of my calendar in my room each month that I vow to continue my journey to wellness. Then I sign it. That's my contract for that month. I have been on track for 7 months now. It seems to be working. I'm doing ok. And you are so right, putting your child first will help you thru this. I'm not just doing it for him, I'm doing it for me. But he's the one I think of when I want to overeat. It's sad, don't you think tho, that we have the will to do this for them, but we didn't love ourselves enough yet to do it? Odd how things work out. I think we both have plenty of time to make good habits and keep them long enough to get them ingrained so that we never have this problem again. I'm cheering for you!