Chris you are such a beautiful woman!! I agree with you about being our own worst critic. The other day my hubby said something about "fat" people and I said "how do you think that makes me feel" and he simply replied that he doesn't even see me as being "fat" which was sweet of him to say...but I wonder if he was saying it so as not to hurt my feelings. I want to join the OA meetings here but they are on Fridays which is really hard day for me, I've tried getting in to the online OA chat at OA.com but I seem to get there when everyone is gone lol.
Stress has me doing one of two things these days, not eating hardly anything or binging like crazy. I had a heart to heart with myself and yesterday was a great OP day no binging and no starving went for a walk and went to bed satisfied. Today I haven't eaten yet but I plan on having a decent lunch and dinner so I'm sure I"ll be fine. We are getting ready to do some remodeling in my home and my inlaws are coming and my husband is having his vasectomy on the 13th and my daughters 3rd birthday are all this month!! I'm swamped!! I'm worried that I'm going to turn to food after hubby has his vasectomy because I'll know for sure that we won't be having any more children, which I would love to have another but medically for me it isn't safe, thus the vasectomy. Ugghhh here I go rambling again. Sorry guys bear with me lol.
I started my new thyroid meds and the phentermine and perhaps that has me feeling a bit better as well.
I talked to one of my ex boyfriends the other day, on the internet, for the first time in like 4 years....I told him about all the stuff I had been struggling with since then and he basically laughed and told me that I must have wanted pity, thats why I cut....Ugghhh I was floored and couldn't believe that some people are so ignorant as to the type of "demons" that some of us face daily. He even went so far as to tell me that when he hears people whining he tells them "oh why don't you go cut yourself" WHAT A JERK!! Seriously.....
Anyway I found myself wanting to purge last week but I didn't I'm proud that I hung in there if only by a thread.
Chris I do want to wish you a very happy birthday! I hope the company of friends and family will bring you all the happiness in the world!!
Jennelle did you get the RV? I may have missed that post gosh I hope I'm not confusing threads again
I'm such a scatterbrain lol. Hubby likes to joke that I need shock therapy LOL he of course means that in the most loving way possible.
Christy how are you doing? School starting soon?
CeeJay how bout you, are you keeping busy? Hope all is well
Have a wonderful day guys!
Michelle