hi, remember me?
My disappearing act continues. I seem to not want to face reality when things are going horribly. The only way I know of dealing when things go wrong is to shut myself off from everyone. I've feel really badly that I have let some good friends disappear.
Anyway, I'm not doing as well as I had hoped. I'm honestly doing miserably.
The problems have always stemed from drinking. I need to deal with that before I can deal with anything else. I haven't had a drink since last Sunday (this is my 9th day) and it hasn't been easy. I went through a rough couple of days with the shakes and feeling generally miserable. Now that has worn off and I'm feeling remarkably well.
I can't say I will be here all that often, but I want all of you to know that I have enjoyed coming here over the years. I wish I could be the inspiration to some of you that you have been to me. But I haven't been...
Matt