i know where meg is, but how about all the rest of you?
i have checked in periodically and i really, REALLY miss you guys.
as i said in an earlier post, i am now in the seattle/tacoma area, previously in hawaii.
i have started working as a rehabilitation asst, for 6 physical and occupational therapists.
its a fantastic job woth wonderful personnal satisfaction.
if all of you oldies remember it was one of my greatest fears---going back to work.
i was so afraid that i wouldnt find a job that fit me and i wouldnt be able to ever find happiness in my work arena.
i am facing this fear and finding out just how strong and successful i can really be.
it has gone a long way towards helping me deal with my "food" issues.
i realized that alot of my overeating was really very low self worth.
i had put all my focus on my weight and looks because i didnt think i had anything else to offer, and if i was fat, then what did i have left?
and this in turn made me eat even more compulsivly, and excercise compulsivly, and worry compulsivly, and round and round it went.
i have really been striving for balance in my life, and its like being born anew.
i still overeat occasionally, but i dont binge.
big difference.
i eat whatever i please, and i havent read an article on weight loss in a long time.
in fact its become a boring topic to me.
dont you guys think its boring??? i mean i have read enough theorys on weightloss and diets to last me 10 lifetimes!!!!
i am starting to understand that balance in ALL areas of my life is the answer to my overeating.
i cant be empty in one without the compulsion returning.
so if im noticing i need more romance, i pay attention to my marriage, if i need more friendship, i work on that, and social life, career, same thing.
NOT pick up another diet theory or look at myself in the mirror and think im too fat.
which is what ive always done before!!!
does anyone have any thoughts on this?
i would love to hear all of your ideas, and would love to get some support on my new outlook in life that if somethings not right, look at my life, not my weight!!!!
love to all,
and looking forward to your thoughts,
wendy