So tonight I have been closer to a real binge than ever before since I started this journey in May. Ice cream. Oh my god I wanted to drown myself in ice cream. It was so hard, especially as I knew I had to go shopping for something else. Was planning it already. One, no, two cartons of my favourite Ben & Jerry's. I was even planning the excuses I would make myself!
I eventually bought a can of diet cola from the store, but still while paying I was eyeing the chocolates and ice creams. When I had walked out I wanted to walk back in so hard. Now I'm back home, the store is closed, the worst of the cravings are gone too. The cola helped a bit.
But what helped most? I started thinking about a skimpy black dress. A skimpy, skimpy sexy black dress. I think I'm going to buy one when I reach my goal. Heck, if I can't find a good one I'll just splurge and get one made for me. And then I'll wear it, and some red lipstick and heels, and go out, and with every step I'll think: Damn I look so hot in this skimpy black dress.
For someone who has been motivating herself exclusively with health reasons, this one feels like such a cheap trick. But heck if that's what it takes to stay off binging, I'll do it. I won't go down that road anymore, I'm done with it.
Now excuse me while I go and google some sexy black dresses!