It's been a while since I've been here. I was a true 100% OP person for 3 months...not one tiny little cheat ever. Didn't even dream of it. I lost 25 pounds pretty easily and was loving what IP was doing for me. I felt supported here, I was supported at home, I was encouraged to go to the end of this.
Then something happened...can't put my finger on what it was. I didn't feel welcomed here as much (not blaming anyone...truly...just my own feeling), I was traveling on college tours and doing my best to be OP...but was having "just a bite" here and there. I've been eating all of my IP foods as directed, eating my veggies and protein, drinking all of my water. But taking a cheat here and there, too. I was justifying it that it was "just a bite"...not like I was eating a whole plate of spaghetti or a big piece of cheesecake. But then it was 3 or 4 bites.
I haven't gained any weight back at all. I'm still down 30 pounds overall. But I know I'm not in ketosis and I know that I'm sabotaging my efforts by those cheats. I keep telling myself, today I am going to be 100%...and then without even thinking, I grab a bite of something. I need to get my brain back on track and be 100% committed again. I can see how easily it is to slip. I can't be a 90% or even a 99%...I have to be 100%
I have found that I need support and encouragement from this group. I need to feel like I can do it. I felt supported when I first joined this group and then my attitude shifted, it needs to shift back. I'm paying a lot of money to IP to not be 100%...and that's insane. I had wanted to hit my goal by June 1st and now that I have stayed this same weight for over a month, I'm seriously stalled and know that it won't happen by June...but I still want it to happen.
Thanks for letting me be totally honest with all of you. I need the accountability back and I appreciate all of you for reading this and for being there. I need this group and I realize that more and more.
Jennifer...back to being 100% fully and committed.