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Zumba I'm not doing good AT ALL. I make it though the morning and then I don't know what goes through my head. Last night my husband came home from work at 11:35pm and asked me "what are you doing?" I told him "putting frosting on a cake!"Originally Posted by Zumbachica
I appreciate your kind words Shannon.....you would have to experience it yourself to truly understand the feelings that are involved in an eating disorder like binge eating.....someone from NEDA is going to be calling me soon bout it, i reached out for help last night. coming on here and seeing everyone making strides makes me feel worse, so I"m not sure if I'll be logging in as much.....but I do appreciate your support.
he said why?
I'm thinking duh! because I'm going to eat it.
I told him "I wanted something sweet earlier we didn't have anything" <-- end of my talking to him
... then I homed in to a box of cake mix in the pantry. ... Zumba I told him as I'm eating this at 11:45pm that, "I only made a third of the box, I used an egg, coconut oil and 60% cocoa chips" like that made it made it better. I had to justify it in my mind and I did. You are not along my friend. Like I said I don't know that all of us have a known eating disorder and/or have had a doctor diagnose it but I think we all have one or have had one. Some just know how to control it/reel if back in and others we just go with the flow until we are tired, idk. I hope I'm not making you feel worse. I do know that I am having a very hard time here lately and I think it has to do with the stresses of life. I pray for your strength, my strength and everyone else. I do know I am tired of this yo-yo and I don't have anywhere to turn except for 3FC. My heart is for you Zumba, don't stop posting