Thanks guys for all of the love. You guys are right. I am the best person I can be, and the medication just helps my true self shine. I never really looked at it that way before. I just always thought I was just some crazy girl who has to take medication so the crazies don't come out. I took a full dose of my medication last night and today was a better day. I've moved on, and so has DH. Like I said before, he understands because of his own mental illness. That's probably why we get along so well because we balance each other. Fi it means a real lot that you took the time out to do a personal just for me. I really needed it. Dean you too!!! I'm feeling like my happy self again today. I guess I just thought that I was on such a rush and a high that maybe this better, healthier life was making my moods better and I could go without the medicine. I had to go without it completely one day right before Thanksgiving a few years back because I had ran out and the pharmacy was closed due to the holiday and I tore my MIL a new one. I had decided I was never going to stop taking my meds because I need them, I guess for some reason I thought this time it would be different. But you are right, and DH said the same thing as Fi. It's just like a diabetic taking insulin to survive, and there is no reason for me to be ashamed for having to take medication to help myself.
I just finished my HIIT core training with my balance ball. I am super worn out. I'm hungry so I think I'm going to get ready to make spaghetti squash leftovers from last night. I also finally got my measuring tape and took my measurements. I gotta say I am not happy with them, and would really hate to see what they were in the beginning when I was almost 28 lbs lighter. But at least now it will be a good thing I can check to see where my progress is there. How often would you guys suggest measuring?
Have a great night! PS: I did have another OP day Love you all so much!!