Quote:
Originally Posted by davina
Hi , thanks so much for replies.
I feel like the pieces have started to come together slowly.
I find myself wanting to try to eat cleaner just out of curiousity to see if compulsion will die down when removing addictive substances, but it was only recently I even gave cooking some effort so a few weeks of doing steps and still totally bingeing.
Alison did you do 10 step yet? (if you are on any of the email loops we could exchange email addresses for support if you want, just pm me.)
I reached step 10 and feel like this was the practical step I was looking for that I could apply in daily life. Although I am still confused by it, my sponsor reminded me this is not a program we apply intellectually but we feel our way through. If you are not used to living in a spiritual place it will take practice until one day hopefully it falls in to place.
Im by no means eating perfect, just yesterday i overate and binged on trigger foods. but there are a few differences I am noticing. First is that I am not obssesed with scale, I will not even look at the scale likely until a few weeks. Second after the slip yesterday and also starting off badly today with no breakfast I didn't feel like "the diet is over" but just that it was another day to get it right( or moreso another meal to get it right)
they say "don't quit before the miracle happens' so I am hanging on to that and I hope you guys will too.
Yea!!! That was the real turning point for me. When I realized that when I f-up, I can start again in that moment. I don't have to wait for the next morning. I don't have to beat myself up. I just pick up where I should be in my food plan and start eating sanely again.