I am not sure if I am posting this in the right place but I have a small victory to share.
During the holidays, after being on WW since July, I reverted back to an old, bad behavior: I allowed myself to go off program to celebrate the holidays. So Halloween turned into Thanksgiving, which turned into Christmas, and then the New Year, then my husband's birthday etc. This time, however, I didn't binge and selected food more carefully while still enjoying some special treats. I did not weigh in because I was ashamed of myself.
I have been back on program for about a week and this morning, I gathered up the courage to get on the scale. I thought that I had ruined the progress that I made from July to October, but it turns out that I have gained only about 2 pounds since October. I can't begin to describe the guilt that I have been feeling and how much I avoided the scale. I did much better than I thought and now I am back to being motivated.
Thank you, Weight Watchers, for teaching me to eat more sensibly. Thank you, 3FCs for giving me a place to learn and share my feelings. In past years, I would have just given up and kept on gaining. Now, I feel that I have more support and control and can still enjoy special occasions. I have learned not to be so hard on myself and to just get right back on program with regular weighins no matter what.