So I've recently gained a ton of weight in a short period of time. I went from a size 12 to a size 16 (180 to 200) in less than four months. I was going through a ton of issues with work, friends, and my husband. My food and carbs made me forget about the pain. Now, it's all that I can think of...how food has ruined me. Food doesn't help in any way. Food doesn't make the worry or the stress go away.
Well...my best friend just told me that she's going on a juice diet and is planning on losing weight. She plans on being a size 10 by July. She's currently a 14. If I try to fit in a 14 now, I will bust. I told her that I would take on the challenge of losing that much weight by that date with her but I'm afraid that I'm doing it for the wrong reasons: jealousy. Jealous or scared that I will be the "fat one" in the group. Trying to avoid any jealousy later. I would be happy for her weight loss but I have to be honest with myself and admit that I would also be bummed that I couldn't achieve the same goal that she reached.
I don't know if I'm setting myself up for failure or giving myself the extra push that I need.