I feel really crummy that I am admitting this little bit of "self-hate" here, but, I am just so disgusted with my weight right now that I'm even too embarrassed to write it out online. It's just... I dunno. It's not that I'm beating myself up over how much I weigh... I mean, after all, when people see me in person, they can give a good guess-timate of how much I weigh, so it's not like it's this huge secret or anything.
However, for the time being, I'm just going to do "mini-goals". Perhaps when I lose enough weight and have been doing this for a few months and actually sticking to it, I'll create a weight loss ticker for my signature. But right now? It seems like this impossible feat so I'd rather just focus on short term goals right now rather than the big picture.
So, my first short term goal is 25 pounds. I figure if I can lose 2lbs. per week, that would put me around mid-April. Hopefully the first 10lbs. or so will drop fast due to water weight, so it will come off a little faster.
Anyway, I'm just creating this post to keep myself held accountable for when the time comes. Hopefully when April 15th rolls around, I'll be able to come back to this thread and say,
Yay! I did it!
... and then start tackling my next short term goal.
Thanks for reading.
- Dakini