chelainabear-I understand not wanting to follow the same pattern to keep things fresh and make planning around life easier
I love the pictures from your concert! Looks like you had an amazing time and your outfit is very cute. As far as eating late at night...that's why I find IF helpful. On days I have an eating window I wait till late afternoon to eat so my window goes later into the evening since that's when I prefer to eat
Rie-Ok seriously whenever I see that pic my stomach drops! lol I would probably ride it, but probably faint in the process haha Ok so now I need to come to England for your rides! Congrats on the whoosh! TTOM just ended for me and it was seriously depressing how much my weight goes up during it! But its back down again. That's awesome your mom grows those fresh veggies
Someday I really want a proper garden. I'm sorry about the job benefits not working out, that's super lame
It really isn't fair at all, but at least you do have some savings and a place to live, food, etc. You'll get through this and you will find a job an be able to save money for your big move soon
I didn't realize you were a veggiephobe! Girl, if you came and stayed with me you'd become the biggest veggie lover! haha I'm glad this diet sounds like a reasonable plan for you. And I see nothing wrong with having a strict plan. I've found for myself lately if I want to lose weight I need a really strict plan.
I don't literally eat nothing! No with 5:2 you have 2 "fasting" days where you eat up to 500 calories. Some people allow for more if needed. I'm sticking to 500 on the dot on most of my fasting days. I guess the diet is pretty big in the UK since that's where it started. It's pretty interesting to read about actually. It wasn't originally designed for weight loss, but for other health benefits and longevity. And then people noticed they lost weight so it's become popular as a diet
For the other 5 days you're to eat "normally" and that's where myself and lots of other people seem to have the most trouble. A lot of people don't count on the 5 days and you're supposed to eat TDEE(maintenance) but for me since I don't have a lot to lose I try to keep a little under. The low calorie days really aren't hard for me, and it seems they get easy for most people. I think the body is just really good at adjusting.
You know, you are so right about the sacrifice thing! Seriously Rie, I've been thinking about that all week(especially when I want an extra cookie lol). Bc these really are vanity lbs it WILL take some sacrifice and I need to be willing to commit fully. Yes it sucks and its annoying, but I have to "suffer" a little if I want to reach my goal. Thank you, you really helped me so much with that comment! I had a total epiphany over it
I do have photos at my heaviest! Although not many. I've been "normal" looking for a while though, even at heavier weights bc I did carry it well. From 155-180 I'm a perfect hourglass. Honestly I liked my shape then better than I do now. I remember at 175 my measurements were like 40-30-40
I'll post some pics at my heaviest for you
Had a great week! Now at my fiance's for the weekend. I'm looking for a piano here and think I might have found one (fingers crossed!). I'm not sure about plans for the weekend yet. M is at a dentist app this morning and aside from getting the piano all I know is I want to go to the beach at some point
Oh and I want to go out tonight for a drink. I'm feeling in a "party" kind of mood and really want to wear my new flirty dress! I know I'll do some baking and cooking while here and hopefully tomorrow we can lounge at the beach. School starts in two weeks so I want to get as much "summer" in that I can!
Nutrition-Going great! Yay
I've stuck to my calorie plan every day this week!
Rie has seriously helped me focus with her comment about making sacrifices. Really for most of my weight loss I really didn't have to try [I]that[I] hard. But now its hard and I know what I need to do and am super determined to do it! My fasting days were fine. Monday was hard bc of TTOM, but honestly not too hard. Wed was very easy. I've been making some great recipes lately and haven't had any dairy or taken any lactaid this week. I'm keeping to my calorie goals now!
Exercise-Usual
Hiked thursday, stationary bike Wed, hike thursday, long walk friday, not sure yet about this weekend but planning another long walk and a swim at some point. Went on a great hike on Thursday with my sister. 3.5 hours and 8.6 miles. We went to these mountain springs and she wanted me to take some pictures of her so we ended up doing a little photoshoot of each other lol She's a model so it makes sense
This is really funny though, we actually ended up taking our tops off and doing some artistic topless photos haha We were right on the trail too!
I was so paranoid and freaking out, but my sister was just like, "Meh, who cares?" about it! The photos turned out very nice and I would post them here, but although you can't see anything in them, I don't want to get in trouble
Its so funny though bc whenever my sister takes photos of me I always think I look weird and what I realized is that its my sister sees me differently than I see myself. She really shows me as vulnerable and even a little dark when she photographs me and I'm not used to seeing myself that way.
Weight-TTOM and last weekend made my weight shoot up 4lbs! I was so miserable about it
But yesterday it was all back off lol I'm staying so well within my calorie goals I know next week I'm going to have a whoosh, I can feel it! I was wondering, can you guys tell when you're going to lose weight/are losing weight? I always notice my face looks a little pinched when I'm losing and also my measurements always drop before the scale. Its so weird, but always my measurements and the scale are a few days off from each other.
Picture time! So since
Rie requested I'll do some of me when I was heavier. Wow, it was actually very very hard to find photos. I think I might be close to my heaviest in a couple of them. I'm not even entirely sure about my size or measurements when I was a bit over 202. I know I wore clothing that was way way way too small for me and I remember not being able to fit into even the XL at many stores(like Forever 21) but I refused to shop plus size. Honestly, I wasn't at my heaviest for very long. And the gain was so fast since it all happened within a few months after I got out of eating disorder treatment so there just wasn't that much time to document it anyways :/ I'm thinking I can find some really good old ones on my parents computer so when I do my official goal post I should have some more. Most of the photos I have are after I started trying to be healthier. Its a little hard to tell in the photos, but I believe the ones where I'm in the black dress(It was an 80s party!!!!) are when I was at or near my heaviest. You can really tell in the one I'm sitting down in how big I was even though I tried so hard to hide it
And for reference a very basic bikini photo of me now. Its actually really crazy looking at these photos. I don't even recognize myself. That person is so dead and gone now.