I've been off my meds for about a month now and started the meds at a time that I was basically on the other spectrum of my weight loss. They made me lazy and tired and obviously helped me put on the crazy amount of weight that I did.
So here I am now....I'm off my meds but I react the same way to diet and exercise as I did on my meds.
I get discouraged, beat myself up for mistakes, and feel like everyone around me expects perfection including myself so why try I'm just going to fail.
I feel so much better in general off the meds so I don't think going back on them is any help since this problem happened with or without them but how do I push past this feeling?!
I am not enjoying hating myself so much and not only do I hate how I look and how heavy I am but I hate that I can't seem to do this without messing up.
I've told my therapist but this last visit I didn't feel like she offered much help.
Le sigh.....the ugly body fat % number I just saw on my new scale ISN'T helping.
One good thing I feel like going to the gym right now not eating, that's improvement.