I think I am extra hormonal or something right now.. because I am like in a really weird place!
So, all of a sudden.. I must have gotten a woosh of inches off of me. I fit into my size 7 goal Jeans that I've carried around with me for 6 years hoping to fit into them again some day. These were the "ultimate" jeans, I thought.. if I could just be able to wear these again I would be happy!
Well, It feels surreal I can wear them, but the problem is I am still very much OBESE! Keep in mind I am very short. I am not feeling as happy with myself as I thought I would be if I could fit into them! Ideally I should be a size 0 I think because of my frame/height. So I still have a long way to go.
And another thing, I don't know if it's loose skin or what but my stomach looks like a pale white prune. It looks.. gross. And when I look in the mirror I feel like I look fatter than ever? It's the strangest thing.
I am the smallest I've been in 6 years but I am more unhappy with myself than ever it feels like. I don't know if my standards keep changing? Like the lower I get, the higher my standards of what I should look like keep raising?
I hope I don't seem immature by posting this and I am trying to get ahold of my thoughts and keep my chin up!