So this is mostly what I call a "thinking out loud" thread, but I've just realized that I need to stop some behaviors RIGHTNOW.
I've had a couple friends that I had stopped talking to for awhile just recently come back into my life, and as much as I love these friends dearly... for a lack of a better way to put this, they are my fat friends from my fat days; the days when not a !!!! was given. And already, just by hanging out with them the past week -- the behaviors were starting to creep back. Going out to bars & drinking, which leads to eating, etcetcetc.
Like last night, we went to this restaurant so my friend could get dinner, and I was done with my calories for the day so I wasn't going to get anything to eat. But it was an Italian place, and of course they sit a basket of bread on the table... you know how that ended up; I was kind of hungry though, so I think I needed some of that, lmao. (Sure I did!) And then they kept talking about wine, and that made me want wine and I wanted to join them for wine, but the problem with that is the only wine I like is Arbor Mist and on a good night, I can -easily- kill the whole bottle; not for getting drunk, simply because it tastes so good, lol. Fortunately I just stuck to 1-2 glasses, but still -- I am seeing where the dangers are lying here.
I've come so far -- I don't want hanging out with them to screw it all up. But the temptations are there and it's so freakin' hard to say no sometimes, especially when the thing you're saying no to is right in your face and everyone else is having fun sharing the bread (or whatever else) and you have to sit there with a glass of water and fight with yourself the whole time, while also trying to have a pleasant social experience. That's not fun, and I don't want to have to do that. But I like these people and I don't want to stop hanging out with them either, especially since my alternative is to not have any friends/a life at all.
How can I make this easier on myself?