Tonight when my boyfriend got home he said he wanted to order one or two large pizzas from papa johns. No big deal for him-he is a lean athletic soccer player. I instantly wanted pizza even though I already ate my allotted calories for the day. I started to think that I would allow myself just 1-2 pieces but I knew that I would end up binging- eating more in the middle of the night or morning-no self control. I started freaking out, so afraid of messing up my plan.
I kind of broke down and started crying and saying I couldn't handle having it in the house at this point (4 weeks into diet). He said okay and invited me for sushi instead. I don't eat sushi so I ordered pork potstickers and fried pineapple cream cheese wontons. I ate 3 potstickers and 3 wontons. It wasn't until after that I googled it on my phone and realized just how bad those wontons were for me.
I was instantly in a horrible, *****y mood and was totally unpleasant the rest of dinner. I feel horrible now about what I ate AND how I acted. He was disappointed we weren't able to enjoy a fun dinner together.
How do you handle things when tempted with bad foods or when your food plan gets thrown off track? Food and emotions can be so connected, I'm trying to learn to not let it ruin my moods.