are
today. I'm sure there were many things to be thankful for yesterday, but I just couldn't see them. I'm seeing a little more clearly today. I hate to come here and spew all that nastiness on you, but I can't talk to anyone else but you guys, because I know that you will understand. Dh tries to help, but he just can't comprehend what I'm going through, like you guys do.
So here are some things I am
thankful for:
I am thankful that the shirt I have on is only an XL. Granted, when I washed it, I only put it in the dryer for a minute and then stretched it and let it hang to dry....but it is still an XL and not a 3X.
I am thankful for a friend here that sent me a PM, that not only made me cry, but made me see some things that I just didn't see.
I am thankful that I don't weigh 346 lbs. anymore and that I will
never weigh that again...no matter what.
I am thankful that I get off work at noon today and that we are going to ride down to Talladega to watch qualifying for this weekend's race. (Actually that's part of my Fun Friday too)
I am thankful that most of you here don't think I'm a loon, just know that I have a tendency to get down on myself from time to time and decide to come in here and spew my pitiful thoughts.
I am thankful you know how to handle me....whether it's to cry with me
or give me a swift kick in the arse.
I am not perfect....I have resigned myself to that. But I'm not garbage either
and I'm sorry for typing that. I am not garbage. I am a good Mom, a good wife and a good friend. I'm giving, loving and I always try to help out when I can. I am not worthy of all the nastiness I was spewing out yesterday, I was just extremely depressed. I'm not completely out of the hole, but I can see the light of day and that is a good thing.
Thank you for bearing with my ramblings and doing just what I needed you to do....help dig me out. What in this world would I do without you. I wish I could meet you all someday and if I could stop crying, I would give each and every one of you a huge hug. I hope you know how much you mean to me.
I'm gonna get off here for now, and I probably won't be back until sometime tomorrow, seeing as I'm headed out at noon. I just wanted to tell you not to worry....I'm ok and I'll see my family tomorrow. I love you.