i've been on and off of this website for quite some time now. the fact that i couldn't consistently make myself post, or follow through on any of the challenges that i committed to made me feel like a failure.
i've been unable to commit to losing weight, because of a certain factor in my life. it had me convinced that i shouldn't lose the weight. that i should just stay the way that i am now. that's not what i want.
i've realized that it's ok for me to think of myself for once. instead of constantly worrying about what i need to do to keep other people happy. i need to lose the weight. or i'm going to live my life hating the way i look, and the way that i feel. that's no way to live life, and i certainly want no parts of it. so here i am once again. recommitting to not a diet, but a lifestyle change. i'm here for me. to make me, and my life better.
i've asked for weight loss buddies on here before, and to those of you who tried to reach out and i fell short, i apologize. but i'm going to make the effort this time. any support would be much appreciated.