Good Morning my IP family-
I know I can come here and share how I am feeling or what is going on without being judged or kicked when I am down. I shared a week ago that I gave into carbs once at dinner and now I am constantly fighting to stay on plan but I am not giving up. I starting thinking about my old patterns. I have been heavy since I was a child (when parents go divorced hmmmm wonder if I us food as a coping mechanism ) I have tried almost every diet out there usually without much success I lose a few pounds and them I am looking back months later with food in my hand going what happened . I had gastric bypass (please if you or a friend is thinking about that talk to me first I won't try to change your mind but I will share my experience) So this time I really want to look at my patterns and I realized if I slip a little I make it a big slip figuring I will start again on Monday. I am not doing that this time I am not even doing "I will start again tomorrow". Whenever I slip my next meal is a chance to get back on track I also never share with anyone or ask for help because I have so much shame and I am worried about being judged. My mind tells me people will look down on me and say oh she can't even stick to plan or she's weak. I know now that is just my carb monster trying to win so I will give it more of what it wants. Today I am not going to hide from the boards or be ashamed to tell you guys that I messed up and am struggling!! I need you and don't have to keep secrets from you! Yesterday was my birthday and I gave into "going out for my birthday with friends" I am not going to blame anyone but myself I have never seen a restaurant that didn't have salad or veggies. I just want to try to break my lifelong pattern and I will start this morning by being honest. I am planning on today being successful and I am taking it one meal at a time so I don't feel overwhelmed. Thank you all for being here and letting me share this with you. I know we can all do this if we just don't give up!!