I don't know what to do. As you may have read in one of my whiny posts, I've been in my healthy weight range for 16 years, but I haven't been at goal for 11. I gained 12-13 lbs all those years ago and have never managed to lose them. I follow this pattern where I lose some, usually 7 or 8, and then when I'm getting close I get diet burnout and convince myself I look ok and why bother and I just don't have the same motivation/determination to skip the peanut butter (heck, why did we have to import that from you guys?? I was so happy without it!), the chocolate in my milk, the square of chocolate after lunch, and tell myself I'm gonna "maintain". After 3 or 4 months I'm back where I started. THEN I maintain. It's funny (actually, it's good), but I never allow myself to go ABOVE healthy range. It's like I let myself go to the limit, but when I realize I'm actually going to be officially overweight again if I don't stop overeating, then I do something. And stop gaining. Questions: why can't I at least maintain what I've lost BEFORE regaining those 7-8? And more importantly, why can't I LOSE THE REST??? It's so frustrating! I know part of the problem is that I lose super slowly and get discouraged, but while I'm losing I feel so good! I've been at it this time for 3 months now and I haven't been too hungry, I haven't felt overly deprived, I'm fine. Then one day I wake up and that's it, I just wanna eat whatever I want and not in moderation, and, and... I just don't get it.
I'm sorry this is so rambly and I know whoever has the answer to this problem will get rich, but I thought it wouldn't hurt to ask the pros before it's too late this time.
I feel like such an impostor for posting here