invisibility was my pay off. I was thin when I was younger and I was social and gregarious and excitable and I was really involved in the local music scene.. but then a few things happened in my life that made me want to sink into the background. A lot of my friends got married and moved away or left for school or jobs. I realized that being a social butterfly was exhausting and I started gaining weight and liked that people stopped bothering me and expecting me to be the center of attention. I was, kind of, afraid to make new friends and meet new people.. and once I started gaining weight I was told "You're not very pretty, but it's okay- punks are supposed to be ugly" and I guess I didn't realize how much that got to me until recently.
Having just moved to a new state with my fiance I've been really itching for new friends so we can have people to hang out with and go out sometimes... and I sorta miss being social now. Hopefully with the confidence I've been gaining because of the weight I've been losing I'll be able to make some new friends, and maybe get involved in the music scene down here.