Thanks, everyone, for the amazing advice.
I know a
huge part of my struggles is that I tend to push myself really hard and take most things I do
overboard. It's pretty crazy, and I'm working towards a more sane "Middle Path".
Cooking meals for myself and eating a rounded meal three times a day is a sane, balanced way to live. I often allow myself to forget this.
Also, because I am smaller & more 'petite', when I gain weight I am still often 'thinner' than taller girls (only in pants size) but in reality I am flabby and unhealthy. I have a pretty 'thin' self image, too, which is good on the one hand, but sometimes it's bad because I am really living in denial--in a fantasy world.
I know I eat to make pain go away. This is one of my big struggles.
Another thing I should mention: I'm vegan/ vegetarian. I don't eat meat, seafood, eggs, cheese, or other dairy products. Because of this, I often trick myself into thinking over-indulging in my "healthy" snacks won't hurt me--but overeating is overeating, no matter how you cut it!
Pageta, I've also experienced how
amazing yoga can be. It's really healing. When I get into (doing it most days a week), I feel more 'in the zone'. More 'in control'--in a positive way. My head feels clearer. I'm less tempted to go overboard on food. It's great. Problem is, it's so easy to let newer, healthier habits go & revert to old, "comfortable" habits when the pressure rises.
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Originally Posted by danzingurl77
I could have written your post. What I do find that helps me is to get a huge water bottle and drink as much as I possibly can. This is going to sound crazy.. but there is a part of me that, in the middle of a binge, tells me not to drink any water, because I KNOW that the second I guzzle a big water bottle, I literally wont be able to eat more without getting sick, and my binge-self doesnt like not being physically able to eat more.. hah.
however- when my healthy self finds her voice and I can get a bunch of water down, I instantly feel like I need to be done eating. I hope that helps.. it really helps me when Im struggling to stop eating!
I feel the exact same way! When I know I'm over-eating I have almost a revulsion towards water. I stare at the glass of water and I just know that I will feel sick when I drink it. Somehow I manage to avoid the water until I'm completely stuffed and then take a sip, which is super-painful and unhealthy.
Anyway, I'm on vacation now, so I'm doing a lot better (when I don't have to think about school work I usually do tons better) but I'm drawing up a bunch of health plans and I'm resolved to
just do it! when I get back on campus.