((Let me disclose first that I know what I am doing is unhealthy....but I feel powerless over it))
OK, so -- I signed up on OKCupid about a month ago. I had gone on quite a few dates with different men but one is turning out to be quite nice so far. I’ll call him MC. For 8-10 hours before any of our scheduled dates my stomach get tied into knots. I can’t (and don’t) eat. So on Saturday, with MC, I ate a few pieces of bread with crab and spinach dip and I had a few bites of his appetizer. That’s it. I have also been talking to another guy and we have a first date scheduled for tonight. But my stomach has been a mess since Sunday morning. The food I ate Saturday went right through me (sorry if TMI) and all I ate yesterday was a Lean Cuisine which I had to choke down. Between Saturday and Sunday I’m lucky if I ate 800 calories combined. And now here I sit at work and it’s almost 2:30. I had no breakfast except for coffee. I know I have to eat but I feel sick. I’m staring at my Weight Watcher meal getting cold. Guy #2 and I are meeting for drinks tonight so I know if I don’t eat something I’m going to hurl onto his lap. But if I DO eat something I might do that too. Or, god forbid, I eat and then have a tummy attack during our first date!
I’m just here to vent and hoping someone can relate. I can’t get over the nerves. And MC and I have been out 4 times already with another date planned for tomorrow. I can’t keep this up. Why do I get so nervous and anxious??? Feels like stage fright.
And what’s weird is that the first 4 guys I met I had NO anxiety or nervousness at all. In fact, when I first met MC, I was less nervous then than I am now after we already met!