So yesterday I got the wild hair to go thru my closet & "weed out" and make a delivery to the Goodwill.
I had a HUGE lawn-sized trash bag when I was done, and many things that I couldn't wear before NOW FIT ME! So ...
On the downside, there were some really COOL clothes that are now too big & some lucky person at Goodwill is gonna strike gold. Meh! I can live with that!
Weirdly enough, I don't feel like I look like I've lost the weight. I still feel fat... still SEE fat when I look in the mirror. All that "weeding out" meant taking things off, trying things on, over & over & over. It took me about 4 hours to complete the task. So I kept seeing my "fleshly belly" and "widddddde hips" over & over again. Ugh. I wonder if THIS FEELING will ever go away. This is something truly internal that I must work on... forever. Because even when I was much younger and much thinner (28 years old & 126 lbs!) I still just FELT. SO. FAT. So yeah, I wonder if this feeling will ever change... will I ever be able to make it change?