So, the other day, I was talking to an online friend of mine. I'm a guy and he's a guy, btw., and I've mentioned my weight to him before so he knows how big I am, but it's never stuck. So we're having a conversation and he casually asks my weight and I tell him, grudgingly that I'm 275 (right now), give or take.
So, he tells me: "Geez, you really are fat", which was just nice to hear, lol. But the biggest surprise was when he revealed his own weight. I knew he worked out, but I was expecting the usual - 160 or 118-120, whatever guys in their 20s are. And, he goes 240, and that just shocked me. And, then he asked me if it hurt when I walked, and I said yes. And, then he had to go.
Thing is, I don't think the whole weight thing is truly a big deal for this guy because he was never fat, and judging by his comment I really don't think he meant it as calling me "super morbidly obese" or anything. I actually told him that I was surprised he was that big. Why not.
It's really a testament to just how much I've lost really that I'm nearing that normal area where the normal (average/thin) people are/realm.
I dunno, it's just weird and frustrating because I've lost almost 185 lbs and kept that off. Not even counting the numerous diets I've been on. My highest weight was 448 lbs and I've lost all that since about 2004.
So I feel like I've been in this so long, and yet...still...I'm "humongously 'fat'". And, yet, just 30 lbs from now, I'll cross the magic barrier (And, I've found this to be true the first time I lost the weight), for my height it's around 260, where suddenly you aren't so "horribly fat" and just be "slightly pudgy" to normal people in the "not THAT fat" category and "thin" to super morbidly obese people. I'm 6 ft (1.83 m) tall btw.
And, I'm just aaaggghhh, over it because the line between "fat" and "thin" seems more fluid and more of a social construct still. To certain people now I will be "thin" or "fine" and to others "grossly, morbidly obese" and all that comes with it. And, I'm so tired of being judged by a number on the scale rather than just me, it's why I hate to reveal my weight online in most places, and I hate to reveal my past heavy weights in real life. Because it always seems to brand you, no matter what.
Anyway, can anyone relate, just a vent really.