Warning: downer coming: To clarify my "fail"
I just don't feel like I am doing this even half right. I quickly backslide. Eating with everyone else at work and like everyone else seems to be a priority for me for some reason. It's not peer pressure - I feel deprived when I have my big salad and they're eating chicken strips, corn nuggets and pie. I know their diet is not the way to go, but I don't know how to fight this off.
To make matters worse I am a born eater (not kidding - it's on my chart from the hospital nursery). I never feel full, even if I've eaten enough to run over I want to keep eating. I have no "done" point.
I keep rotating through different diets with a long break between each. I find low fat diets to be miserable. Low carb is great, except the inconvenience after awhile. Nutrisystem was painfully slow (to the point I was scolded by my coach), too expensive, and not that palatable. Primal has been easy except I want the darned pie sometimes. WW worked slowly for me, but I got discouraged, and bored with the tallying points gimmick. I need a way to adapt primal maybe? But my current adaption is not working. It's me trying really hard to be good, then not beating myself up (seriously, I don't) when I have a little something off plan - once or twice a day. I looked at Jillian Michaels awhile back and vetoed it. Her low carb concept is sorta small in the book. I have the spark diet book, but I don't do well on low fat - oh you should see how much I can eat then.
I know this is a long rant, and maybe just some thinking "out loud."
Is there a primalish, whole foods, real food, not too high carb, doesn't eliminate real treats (not a sugar free popsicle for a treat - those folks need to get real). I want real food, not frankenfoods. I don't believe starchy processed foods are healthy. I don't think meat will kill me, but I'm not sure a cookie a day will either. Any suggestions? I like the flexibility of primal, but not the feeling that I'm not completely compliant, and thus not doing it right. Maybe it's time to develop the "Kelly Diet" like Oprah did - she planned her own. But like Oprah, I've gone diet to diet with mixed successes.
Any suggestions? My only idea right now is that my dr. wants to check my thyroid, but that will be on into my next cycle when my hormone check comes up.
Maybe I'll get that test done early. It would make sense if that's my problem. I have a lot of hypothyroid symptoms.
I need some love, and advice.