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So, I have great on plan days, and some great off plan days. I'm not beating myself up anymore for being who I am. So, okay, I'm all or none. Most days I'll be all, and occasionally I'll be none. It is what it is, and I just don't think all the counseling and self help programs in the world is going to change it.
Holy cow Lori, this stuck such a MAJOR cord with me and is something that I've been thinking for a few weeks now. My binging has been rearing it's ugly head and I've just been thinking...maybe this is just me. Sometimes I overeat...it happens. As long as on the majority of my days, I don't overeat and am on plan, well then all is well. As long as I keep weighing everyday and planning as best I can and am aware, I can handle it. I won't regain 130 lbs overnight.
However, I feel that I need a little more control and there needs to be a few more rules, because it is a bit of a slipperly slope. But finally, not beating myself up over it feels really really good. And kind of takes away the power for binging, and makes food...like Jay said...just food. I think that attitude can lead to better attempts at moderation and more intuitive type eating. It felt good Monday that although I had the first OP Friday in a long time, my Saturday and Sunday were pretty pitiful. But without even thinking, I was OP Monday and the water weight is already almost gone. I'm getting better and better at just accepting ME...