Krampus,
I can relate so much to your last post. I will go crazy with candy and pastries, and I also have no fullness meter either. I can honestly say that I could eat an entire box of doughnuts, on my own, in one sitting. I could eat a dozen cupcakes as well. So I'll end up eating 3 or 4 and feeling horrible... Hence why I have such monster runs and workouts at the gym. I always "joke" that I should attend overeater's anonymous, but I actually should. I can't control myself and I'm worried about what will happen if I ever get injured and can't work out. I'll be pretty much screwed at that point. Like you, I also can't turn off diet mode because I know the calories in all of the foods that I eat. Therefore I can't truly enjoy anything because I'm mentally counting the calories. Even if it's high in calories I'll eat it, but it just means that much guilt later. Some days I try to say that I don't care, but the sad thing is that I do. Because if I don't get this under control in my 20s, what kind of eating monster machine will I be in my 30s, 40s, 50s?
I'm sorry for blabbing on and on...I can just relate so much to what you're dealing with.