I apologize for posting so many threads in the last little while but I feel like this is becoming the only place where I can vent about how I feel and have people who understand what I'm talking about or going through.
I'm scared. No, scared doesn't really cover it I don't think.. More along the lines of terrified.
I joined 3FC and I did pretty good for the first little while, it definitely makes me look inside myself for answers, or understand how my body works, but I'm losing it..
I got on new medication for adhd and anxiety, and the weight that I lost recently wasn't from me doing well in my diet, or exercise. It was the pills. I lost my appetite and that's how I lost what I have so far. The problem now is that my body has adjusted to the pills and my appetite is back. I'm starting to gain back the weight that came off and just thinking about that makes me cry.
I always get down to 190, and of course... I go back up. I haven't gotten to 180 and stayed in 180 in about four years, at least. I feel like I won't ever get my outside to match the personality I hold inside.
I see the progress other users here on 3FC have made, and it inspires me so much, but how am I supposed to do what they've done?
I've tried asking my family for help.. But they don't help. It's not that they are trying to hurt me or keep me from progressing. They just don't do anything to encourage me or make me feel like what I'm doing is right.
I can't find that balance of exercise, or food plan that has really worked. It's possible that I haven't been able to keep it up long enough to see progress, but it just gets so depressing to go for two or three weeks and see no changes on the scale, or in measurements..
I apologize for the rambling, and be such a downer but I don't know where else to turn.